Sometimes inadequacy fills my spirit like a whirlwind,
And I wonder how I got here…but I’m here. Adequacy must exist.
It’s not from lack of confidence, but because there is so much more I need to do and sometimes what I feel I am doing is not enough.
Maybe I should have studied harder.
I get so impatient with myself til I hear the words “Keep going”.
I get so tired sometimes…so tired that I want to back away from everything and run.
I fight fear with courage everyday. It’s a fierce boxing match.
Some rounds I win.
Other rounds I almost cave in,
Until I’m reminder of why I am here,
And what my courage will do and bring in the atmosphere.
I don’t need liquid courage. That just covers up the mess.
I need spiritual courage because it exposes the tests I have to study for to progress my life further.
I’m not an A student in life. It’s just a Pass or Regroup.
Failure is just a lesson…not the end of everything…but the beginning of something.
A strength you never knew was there.
That’s the reminder I need.
Whether I buckle,
Whether I stumble,
Whether I fall hard,
Whether my spirit crumbles…
I’ll get up and continue being adequately courageous.