Werd Paintings

Sometimes inadequacy fills my spirit like a whirlwind,

And I wonder how I got here…but I’m here. Adequacy must exist.

It’s not from lack of confidence, but because there is so much more I need to do and sometimes what I feel I am doing is not enough.

Maybe I should have studied harder.

I get so impatient with myself til I hear the words “Keep going”.

I get so tired sometimes…so tired that I want to back away from everything and run.

I fight fear with courage everyday. It’s a fierce boxing match.

Some rounds I win.

Other rounds I almost cave in,

Until I’m reminder of why I am here,

And what my courage will do and bring in the atmosphere.

I don’t need liquid courage. That just covers up the mess.

I need spiritual courage because it exposes the tests I have to study for to progress my life further.

I’m not an A student in life. It’s just a Pass or Regroup.

Failure is just a lesson…not the end of everything…but the beginning of something.

A strength you never knew was there.

That’s the reminder I need.

Whether I buckle,

Whether I stumble,

Whether I fall hard,

Whether my spirit crumbles…

I’ll get up and continue being adequately courageous.